>>
Pissy.
Grumpy.
Mad.
Bummed.
Angry.

Wtf!!!!

So my name aint on the pamplet book for volunteering. Wtf. So someone told me there was a non-finalized list of volunteers names and it somehow ended up in the final copy. Therefore my name wasn't on it!!!

Wtf!

I was going to show it off to my parents so that they will be proud! You might be thinkin, 'well they know you are volunteering isn't that good enough?'
No!!! No its not!
To have your name left out is a big deal, especially to me. Yeah sure my parents won't care too much, but, I freakin' do!

Now I don't even wanna volunteer the certain days I was planning to do it. I was going to do all the sign up shifts tomorrow and do my research for the whole festival...now imma just kick back and say "beeeyotch" to all of them. Its their fault!

I aint workin my a$$ off and not get credit where it should be!! F them!!!!!

Could a theory be because I didn't sign up for shifts and they excluded me out?? Um, hello, did you know what I was going to do tomorrow? How about Monday? Or Tuesday or Wednesday? Huuuh! Exactly, you don't. You didn't know I was going to spend my time studying the festival!!! So if that was the case my answer is, you didn't know! And you couldn't come up to me and say, hey, are you still in?? But you freakin didn't!!

If the excuse from the person in charge of putting the list of names is 'we didn't know exactly the names of everyone.'
Bull$hit!
There's been massive emails to the certain group of volunteers with all our names in the "to:" section of the email.

Pathetic!

You are all pathetic!

Think it wasn't a biggy?
Tell that to the person who is helping your customers come thru the door!

Ya'll $hitheads to me.

I am defiant.

Shopping shall include get-up outfits with fierceness. And ya know I should go to those volunteer days and be destructive!

Clothing policy-business attire.
Psssh!
I'm finding them stunning over-the-knee boots and strutting it with black tights, skirt, off the scale top and show them what's up!

If I aint on the list, I shouldn't even show up.

But two can play this game...
muahahahahaha!

Sleezy at it's best!

>> I have ignored this blog forever!!

Anyways, I've been spoiling myself these past few days. A good spoil is a happy girl. =)

Started off with a haircut. Its uber cute when curled. The stylist told me about the new Paul Mitchell Awapuhi line. Creates soft silky hair. I will go back when she gets the special stuff. ;)

Went to the mall and got cute wooden and plastic hair clips, pink sparkly cz earrings, and a vanilla cupcake bubble bathwash. Yay!

The next day I went back and got a cropped leather jacket. I wasn't feeling the cropped look nor the scrunchy back, but the shoulders had that quilt style I oh-so-love! I'll work with it I guess.

I'm still on a shopping crave...I really should avoid the malls else I'll feel like I will have to buy something I see that's cute. I did a good job spoiling myself. It might not seem like much, but, I haven't bought so much for myself in a long long time.
It would be really awesome if I got spoiled like that by my man...but he's on a budget. He'll spoil with eating out. Nothing materialistic over stuff I get a thrill at in the stores.. =/ oh wells.

That's why I say "I spoil myself"....

>> Oh hello you!
My my as time sure does fly.

I ended up with an A in my summer class. 10 1/2 page final essay project. Baah. At least I got my A! Woo!

>> For much more exciting news, I should be getting married in a few weeks, go house renting with the babe, and yeaaaah! Wheee! This place we're really considering has a nice spacious yard. Which means privacy and space space space! A las, bbq partaay and sippin on some wine in the jacuzzi. How lovely is that! I'm thinkin of putting a cabana back there too. Some sort of shade to sit on the chairs and chillax.

I will definitely spruce up the place...when money isn't too tight. Oh man all the stuff I can put into "our home" for decorations.

I am very excited for all this.

Thanks Jesus love You

SPARK

RIP Joseph B.
I am shocked and saddened you passed away.
We've met, but, I don't remember our convo.
You will always be the cute guy I remember.

Having cable "radio" is great!

Casting pearls "weighted" sounds rocking.

>> Every Sunday when I leave my familys home to my other place near work, I get this odd feeling.
A feeling of I miss them and want to just move back home.
A feeling of depression.
A feeling of I want to be around them and see all the stuff I been accustomed to for many many years-furniture, the view, the tv, the pictures, everything!
A feeling of not being able to see and talk to them in person, well not til the end of the week.

I get so sad coming back.
I don't want to go to work tomorrow.

In a way I want to be fired from work. That means no money. Therefore, back into the parents home.

I do admit it gets very dramaish there.

But! The love is there and being with them means a lot.

Of course Jesus Christ is my number 1 first.

>> I deeply apologize for not blogging in forever!!

I forget. Too tired. Or just plain lazy.

I am taking a summer class. Lots of reading and writing. Blaah.

Went to disneyland. Yaay.

It's official I am 3 months at my full-time job! The whole 90 day 'probation' is over and I start reaping benefits. Oh yesss!!

SPARK

p.s. Jesus is Great!
Pray and things will go well okay?

>> Went to Disneyland woot woot!
Fastpass came in handy very well.
I want to go back and stock up on mickey snacks and candy treats. I was frugile on spending. Now I'm like 'duuude I should have gotten it..!'

>> Been watching 16 and pregnant. Oh man the cut for a c-section oowwww! I don't think I can handle being a nurse. Too ouchy looking. I squirm.

Maybe I should put baby plans on hold haha. I really want one soon so I won't be old. I want to be a young mama. Crying all night baby or even day time...um no thanks child! And for sure won't give milk to my baby to sleep. Hello! Milk=sugar=baby tooth decay=baby bottle syndrome! No thanks.

>> I have been staying up late. Which means I wake late and almost late to work.

Why?

Internet.
Tv.

Baah.

>> What's dumb is if I had poor service, there wouldn't be a percentage at all! No matter how much the meal was. It be zero percent!

If servers think they can make great tips cause they got pricey food and hope customers pay a percentage of the bill, think again!

I aint giving you free money cause what I ordered was expensive. If you rely on tips, go do something else and blame yourself not the customer!

If you think well you shouldn't dine out if you won't tip well. I say I'm paying for the price of the meal! Tips are for servers who go out of their way, else they are just doing their "hourly pay". Its not like youre not getting paid per hour. You are! You are expected to bring me my drink and refill and ask how things are. Its part of your employee handbook.

If you can't accept it, do something better with your life and the salary you want you will get. If you don't, blame yourself.

Thanks!

>> Omgee!
I am like obsessed with Ali from the bachelorette shows white dress!

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On that blog site it says its Marc Bouwer designer, but, I'm skeptical about it. The one on bluefly it links to isn't the same design around the neck. The one Ali wears is a full circle beaded around the neck. The blue fly isn't. The champagne color looks kinda like it. But I won't say it is til I see the sides and backing. On the show it looks like chiffon is pulled from the back and front and on the side they connect above the waist. So these details will let me know who the real designer is when I see it.

Anyways I want it!!

I'll pay up to $1,000 for it! I can wear it to the court wedding and engagement photos. Photos at the real wedding a year after court wedding when we save up for a nicer one. The wedding dinner dress to move and shake around in. The shortness works!

I might have a traditional long white wedding dress separate for 'walking down the aisle'. This other dress(Ali) will go a long way for all the other stuff. That's why $1k will be worth it.


Gimme!

>> Just watched Flashpoint for the 1st time. I hate the ending. Never watching it again.

>> Chips overload!
Tried these new Cheetos mini zingers in cajun and ranch flavor. At first it was awesome. Then got nasty and too crunchy. I can see they got the idea from small leftover pieces of crunchy cheetos in a regular bags and people must have loved those bits. My teeth started getting tired of the hard crunches. Blaaah. Hot cheetos are always the best! Screw these wanna bes!

>> Today was a good work day. Less patients. Good patients. Good talks.

SPARK

>> Did some grocery shopping yesterday.
Chicken nuggets, taquitos, frozen entrees meals, capri sun, baby carrots, baked beans, curry bisque soup, tomato basil soup, hot dogs, salsa, mayo, caesar dressing.

Mmm. A couple dollars for a frozen entree meal compared to a 4 dollar fresh steak...I'll do the frozen even though it's loaded in sodium. Besides if I spend on a steak, there has to be side dishes to go with it..so add a couple more dollars. It's like that news special of how a family can get a burger for a dollar, but, when they go into the store they can't find anything healthy in that small price range. I agree, a dollar whopper jr will satisfy me more than an apple and a cheesestick.

I have a crapload of groceries I bought last week. I just get an urge to get more of other items and want to 'save' it for later. I do sure enjoy their soups! Tomato basil will come 2nd to Nordy's. And the curry bisque will come 2nd to an actual Thai restaurant. :)


Hmm what's for dinner? A frozen entree meal and baby carrots with caesar dressing. If I still get hungry-taquitos and chicken nuggets with salsa!!!

I didn't buy bread cause I dislike due dates. If I'm really feeling sandwichy, then I'll buy day of.

>> Had a couple cancellations at work. Woo hoo ! I mean, daarn!
Being stressed trying to clean up the room and getting ready for next patient sucks!

I know it's bad financially for the office. But, I like breaks!

>> Yesterday went to Nordie's with Kat. Selection of the half yearly sale wasn't that great. I did find a top that looked flirty and cute enough to buy. There wasn't a tag so the lady got a top that resembles it. Later on I saw that top in a different color and the price. Well, I saved like a dollar or so off the real sale price. Hehehe. The cafe was closed and was soo bummed I didn't get my tomato basil soup with a breadstick. :(

I saw a kid run through Macys with his skateboard and a security guy barely jogging and gave up. Lame. The guard probably didn't feel like tackling someone like a real officer would. Wuss!

For dinner, we met up with Jen. I had the steak fajita salad that comes in a tortilla shell. Now it looks massively awesome tasting...the taste wasn't quite as awesome. The salsa on the side tasted sparkling. Hmm? It was wierd.
Didn't eat much of it. It was like $13! Dang. The ingredients took $13 but sure didn't taste it. The onion rings were weak too. Battered. Blah. No fried crunch sensation. It's a mediocre place to eat if you're starving.

>> I got to organize my room and closet. So messy!

Jesus <3

SPARK

>> I love my parents so much.
This week when I go home after work, I will play chess with my father and bond that way. "So who won in basketball?" isn't going to work for long haha.

Even though my mom gets on my nerves I still love her and appreciate all that she does.

Thank You Jesus for being Great
Love You

>> I need a laptop.
Netbook or laptop?

I aint got the cash flow so that's why I am thinking about a netbook.

Quality is an issue. I don't wanna be annoyed by a slow processor waiting for things to load and windows to open. Thus, laptop.

A couple hundred $ difference. May seem like a little but it's a lot to me. Rent and bills take up my whole paycheck.

I got my bb for decent internet surf.
Just need to upload lots of pics and vids. I could swing by BOY's pad and use his laptop.

Netbooks can handle uploads...it's just the fear of it loading slowly(folders,apps) and not as capable as a laptop in video editing and high end use.

Store testers don't do justice. You can't really upload as if you were doing real work.

My old laptop would have a color bar streaming left to right when I opened a folder and my contents wouldn't appear until a long time. Its a 1gb ram gateway laptop. Just a couple years old and it sucks! Paid like 600 for it. Ugh!
I didn't know about ram back then. When I tried the netbooks opening the folders I didn't have that loading wait problem. Same ram size and probably ghz processor. I don't get it. So I'm totally hating gateway cause of it. And my internet can't connect to pages sometimes. Boo!

It seems like I get a laptop every few years. So if I got a netbook it would be cheaper. Unless there is a laptop that will last me a long time.

Is there a netbook that won't fail me quality and price wise?

>> Well when I was leaving, my mom came out the closed bathroom(I guess she was being emotional in there), she went to the bedroom, and I told her I will be back tomorrow to bring eggs and bread since they're almost overdue so they can have it. More mouths than 1 at my place.

Then she says, 'I don't care, my head is hurting a lot, you're stayin there 30 dollars a night, you're just there having fun.'
...

I am so sad. And I can see my mom has an effect on my dad. I was waving from the car to my dad as I left and could see he has emotion because of what my mom is feeling.

I do feel guilty. I get advice saying that my mom will get used it to eventually.

Maybe the fact that today I kinda threatened saying I'm going back to my other place because you keep nagging made it seem like she was guilty.

I did notice yesterday when I told her things like I just said I didn't want this or that and she would politely be like alright alright. Today I guess I bombed on her. So yesterday she was making an effort to be better.

Well no matter how much she tries to change to listen to me better, I am still moving out. I have to have freedom else my boyfriend will leave me.

I guess my mom expected me to sleep at her place all weekend and be there all weekend and only at my new place during work days...

I guess part is my fault for exploding on her and part that I am only seeing her once a week if I don't spend the whole weekend with her.

But I want to go out weekends. And those nights and not worry bout being home.

So in a way I am having fun.

But I need freedom.

If only I had the mom who was okay with me dating and going late night out I would have a better relationship with my mom and actually could stay home til I married.

Jesus please give us strength.

>> Friday night.

I tried swimming yesterday some more. I couldn't quite get it. At least I swam a couple more feet before my legs start sinking to the ground and water up my nose. Ha.

:)

SPARK

<3 Jesus

>> Me sleepy. Looking forward to sleeping in.

Love Jesus

I love Jesus

>> I moved last night.
I wanna move back to my parents.

I enjoy seeing them everyday of my life. During meals, tv watching, and all the good times and even the bad. They are there.
I miss the comfort of the bed, the rooms, everything I am so accustomed to and roaming around.

I only did it because my boyfriend encouraged me to so we can move forward into the relationship. A stepping stone to us being able to have more freedom hanging out when/whereever without parental phone calls to come home since its 10pm.
To no more sneaking around saying I am hanging with girl friends when I am really with BOY.
To late night-more like whenever calls to and from BOY without worrying who is home that could hear the convo. Or not even be able to talk at all.

He didn't want a "high school relationship" -kid stuff. If I didn't move, then down the future he would break up with me cause I didn't move out and basically didn't have a free life.


So was this for the better? Yes I have my future husband.

My parents? Let's knock on wood. They age.

I want to spend as much time as I can while they are here. Does this mean I have to be 45 or some old age til I move out? No.
I could say 'hey I'm dating this guy imma go out whenever I want!'
Sorry that won't go well. Especially with my mama.
This freedom will strenghten my future husband relationship. But weaken my parents since I won't be around except weekends.

Sure I go visit them weekends. But its not the same not seeing them everyday and talking with them. Its almost like I ran away. It seems odd but I never go long without seeing them. Maybe two nights out of the whole year for some good reason but nothing like this.


I am sad and emotional about this. This is day 1 of not living with the parents.

FIZZ

>> Baskin robbins has 31 flavors. They got the usual universal flavors and candy inspired flavors. Was there really 31? Imma count next time. Didn't see anything too extraordinare. However, my favorite is strawberry shortcake. It's not the same as the ice cream bar version(this bar is the best in the world!). Has bits of cake, swirls of strawberry and a yellow flavor cream.
Ben & Jerry's have more flare to their ice cream flavors. I should venture into it. Haven't gotten to it cause the multi-dollars pricing walks me away... I'll sample the minis when they go on sale for a dollar haha.

>> I am looking for a new handbag. I like the speedy styles of Louis. I have an ezekiel brand with that same style. So I am open to other brands as long as its cute! Hmm time for some amazon shopping! Woo! I wonder how it works. Are sellers packaging their goods right from home to a buyer or do they ship it to amazon and amazon handles it from there so the sellers never get our personal information hmmm?

>> Sleepy.
New moon has 45 mins left. Soo slow. Kinda boring. Will watch later.

>> I am craving bbq chicken...like real bbq chicken-black lines juiceyness. Mm!

What to eat tonight for dinner?? Mmm!

>> In case of a sugar-low patient emergency, put cake frosting under the tongue.

Hmm what to eat for dinner???
Pick up stix?? It is cream cheese wonton Wednesday.

>> My new room is slowly getting its stuff together. Seabird, my roomie, has utencils and kitchenware already for me to use...but..aiii rather have my own since I already bought it when I was living at the baby chateau. So let's not put that money to waste. Besides her forks weren't that great anyways.
There's a 5 level cabinet in the kitchen and I have one level, I am going to ask for another level. C'mon you get 4 and I only get 1? At least give me 2 to make it almost have. Geez. I have stuff too ya know.
So, one level will be my utencils, plates, cups, cooking spices & utencils. The other will be my canned/boxed goods, and drinks.
She better say yes.

>> Hello world.

Today so far was a good day. Mostly composite filling restorations. I think that's my favorite procedure to do.
Crown prep sucks. More messier and I have to pour up models blah. Yeah basically more work.

I think a busy office is a not-so-likey office. More chances of getting behind schedule and delays of next patient.

Dr. A would have been much much chill. I keep thinking about that office I so could have locked down on but my stupidiness of calling in the morning to say I'm coming after lunch cuz of issues during my work interview blew back in my face. Arrgh.

Oh wells. Would have could have's...its did and done.

>> So ready to call quits at this job.
I don't look forward to it any more.

1. The manager is mean. Plays the "today is a great day thank you" on the outside to patients and on the inner side she will get all up in your face with a nasty stern voice. When she leaves a voicemail for a reminder, sounds soooo fake. Ugh!

2. The assistant co-worker is super nosey all therapist like with me making me talk about things I am uncomfortable about. Nosey nosey and thinks she knows how to make the end result right.

3. I know I'm slow in taking xrays. I feel I'm getting a raised eyebrow with a mean look behind my back cause I am soo slow. Get that 'hurry yo butt up' feeling.

4. I don't look forward in coming to work. I want to call in sick to avoid the day. The people all around at work could be better to be around with.

5. The schedule is soo packed I don't have time to clean the room until the next patient is here. Then I can scramble to clean. Patients run over time leading to a domino effect.

I wanna just get married, have kids and be a housewife.

Screw all this work!! Well this one.

FIZZ

>> Congrats Kim Kardash in winning Miss USA over Heidi Montag.
=P

>> So the other night I was eating dinne with co-workers and they were talking about my situation. One of them got on my nerves. She talked like she knew what was best and felt like she knew what I felt and how "they" felt. Basically she thinks she knows everything. She acts like she's a therapist.

Don't judge me.

She was getting all nosey asking how I felt about the situation and just made me annoyed!!

For reals about this line,

"you don't know me!"
You can assume all you want in emotions and how people would react but don't act like you know everything. Leave me alone and drop this subject.

I didn't bring it up. You just kept attacking me about it.
Geez.

This situation was about moving out of the parents. Luckily one of the other girls was on my side and understood my whole situation. Not every family works the way you think chick!

Ahhh! Got me all mad. Imma stay away from her as best I can.

>> Went to Lush yesterday.
I haven't been to the site in forever and couldn't navigate through the pages I wanted today to compare...anyways I thought they were cheaper and smaller in size. This Lush carried the big sizes and not much variety as the site from what I remember.
The swirly purple and white bubble bar was huge and $9 bucks...whaaa? I rather have a smaller one so it can be stored nicely and cuter. I did not like the smell at all. Cute but stinky. Passed on that. I could cut it smaller but it won't be the same.

I did pick up the cupcake bubble bar cause it had a sweet vanilla smell. For some reason one cupcake smelled more than the others so I picked that one haha. Maybe it broke and was exuting the smell. It didn't have a little brown swirl like some did. Mine is all white. Hm. Anyways I got it and is happy with it.

Got the honey bath bomb. Smelled sweet and hint of honey. The ball bombs seemed to be more fun when dropped in water and fizzed longer. They got bowls of water and samples to throw in.

Also got the vanilla bath bomb. Smells like vanilla. Kinda small for $7 boo.

They all were about $7 each. Pricey I'd say. So these will be treats on days I deserve a pamper moment haha.

I will use them separately since I'm being cheap and want to experience them separately. I could do bubble bath with bomb but that's like $14 there. Yeah I could cut it up smaller - it would be less suds and bubbs.


So as you can see I was into the sweet scent more than the pink smelling types.
The pink glitter would have looked cute in the bathroom.

I think I'll just go to another Lush, get the smaller sizes, get the "cute looking ones" and use as display and not bathe in it.

Yup.

>> Been so tired waking up. Should really go to bed early. I blame good tv and the internet.

Baah.

>> Souplantation. Dinner. Full. Sleepy. Achy belly.
Whyyyyy???

>> Sometimes I look forward to work.
But, when the doc loses his cool, no way! He gets more annoyed when he runs outta time and starts getting sterned voice in what he wants me to pass him. Argh.

The money is making me stay.

Pay week is this week woo woo!

>> Not happy with Amazing Race winners. What's happened happened, no need to get pissed over something that won't change the results.

Argh.

>> Too much plum wine and sake...
Headache.

FIZZ

>> Went to l&l with Kat yesterday.
Man I have to start carrying cash on me. When I paid they have that receipt that has "tip" on it. Being nice, I put $1.
They don't need a tip! Besides it was the manager working the front-he already makes money. And stop fake nicing me.

I should have left my trash on the table and have them throw it out-thats tip worthy service. I picked up my own area AND wiped it down AND tossed it in the trash. What did they do to deserve a tip? Saying mahalo? Um. No. That's part of customer service you freak! You didn't go no extra mile for me you bastard! Besides why should I tip before I even tried the food or be 'serviced'??? You don't tip the restaurants before you eat!!!
I need my one dollars. I barely make anything! So I have to start putting zero or a line across that tip line if I only have a credit card for stupid food joints trying to make money off of me. Bastards.
That's why with cash you wouldn't have to tip at all. There wasn't even a tip jar for real monies. Stupid fool!

My dollar belongs to me.


This was the final straw! I tipped peeps before a dollar at same not-even-restaurant-joints receipt tip amount thang. But, I'm putting my foot down. No more! No more ripping me off! I'm putting zero. If AFTER my food experience I like I will come back and give them a dollar. And especially if its to-go heck no I aint tipping! If I got home and the order is wrong or taste horrible, I don't want to say "why did I tip them for this crap???"

So there.

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>> Sephora has Tarina Tarantino shimmer dust that I like...a lot!

Micro dust! I told my friend to spray it at the bottom of my hair. Haha.
$39 is too pricey to buy. So, if I'm there I'm giving myself a spritz! ;)

>> Been lagging on my days. Found a new show I like on food network.
Neely's makes me want some bbq right now!! Ribs, tater salad, honey muffins, drunken shrimp. Oh yuum!

Let me sit there!

>> Work was good overall this week.

Thank You Jesus for helping me in taking great perfect xrays!!

SPARK

>> Last night went with BOY to a bar to meet up with Kat's group for her birthday celebration.
BOY and I got there early and it was waay packed and Kat wasn't there yet so we had our own dinner thang elsewhere.
Met up with the group, told BOY to get a shot of kamikazee from the bar so I could talk to my homegirl. BOY came back and I gave the drink to her. She said thanks to BOY and he was like 'thank her'. Shoo darn right, I bought that not him. Get it straight. Didn't want her thinking I didn't get her a drink on her birthday when I did, just told BOY to get it instead of me trying to waive down a bartender. By the way, I gave him a $20 and told him he can get a drink too if he wanted. And he never gave me my change!!
Did he forget I gave him cash?!? Cause later we were talking bout prices for drinks. Then he goes, 'I spent $14 on those drinks.' Wtf! With my money!!
I'm only letting this go cause he paid for dinner.

Either than that it was a packed night and it was good overall.

>> Yesterday.
Hung out with and friend and went to Jack for the sandwich trio deal. Ew. The only goods in this was the sliced pickles. The salami was stinky tasting. Ew ew.

Sat next to a drive-thru window and started slamming about each person and their car going through. Only one seemed normal and we had nothing bad to say bout her haha. I felt like a commentator making fun of everyone-so mean of me, yet, so fun for us. ;)

>> BOY and I went to a bbq dinner. Carne asada burritos yum! Can't wait til we host our own...it's gonna be awesome! I should make a list! BYOB!
Let's see...

Appetizers
• Shrimp & cocktail sauce with lil wasabi
• Chips cracker dips
• Fruit veggie platters

BBQ Yum
• Marinated carne asada
• Marinated chicken drummettes
• Skewers/kabobs

Garnishes
tortillas, sour cream, bell peppers, onions, salsa fresca, guacomole, mushroom, pineapple, and them toppers

Sides
• Salad
• Rice-a-roni

Simple. Should be yummy though. :)

>> Sleep.
Good day.

>> I hate rolled tacos now...maybe cause I ate more than half a big bag of doritos right before it. I hate doritos too now.
Yucky.
I need water.

>> I'm so bad.
I'll leave it at that.
Dumb me.

FIZZ

>> Does forcing air conditioning in the morning drive to get sick on purpose to not have to work sound crazy?
Let me tell ya, it don't work!

Yeah, more and more I feel like quitting.
The dollar signs keep reeling me in.

The bills gotta pay.

And if I don't have a job, BOY won't put up with it.
So yeah. I'm stuck in the meantime and just counting down the days til the weekend.

FIZZ

>> I noticed Spencer from the Hills is seeking desparate attention lately. He is trying to bad mouth anyone on twitt that he can in hopes of attention from the media...

Why?? Because his wife Heidi is getting all this attention and he's not. And because the hills are starting up again.

Don't buy into his manipulation media people!

>> BOY(my bf) helped me move furniture to my new place. The setup is decent. Not as lovely as "baby chateau"
...this will suffice. Still need a new name for my place.

Seabird(my roomie) furnished me with a chair so now I don't need to worry bout getting one. So, I saved money on a bookcase, dual floor lamp, chair, 3 drawer dresser, some hangers. They're not the cutest, but, it was free free...freeee!! 6 months from now I'm moving in with BOY so that's when interior designing goes into full effect!
bigger place » nicer rooms » better everything!

My next shopping items will be:
• shoe hanging organizer squares in the closet
• clothes hanging orgaziner squares in the closet - kinda used as a hamper
• hamper for my scrubs

My list could go on...when money starts falling.. ;)

>> Dinner was seafood. It turned out messy haha. Got the sampler. King crab, snow crab-my favorite!, mussels, clams, crawfish-my least favorite, shrimp, and some sides - sausage, corn, potato. It was juicy. Mm.
Drenched in garlic butter, cajun, and lemon pepper. Dippin' nonstop! For the red potatoes I dipped it in the special juice, rubbed salt&pepper on top and squeezed lime on it. Sensation!

>> Weekend job.
I really want a tipping job. If I get no tips, it would just be a regular hour pay job. Making a tip would be an extra kick. Technically I would have nothing to lose. That's leaning towards a restaurant biz job or starbucks(blaah). Stress!

Or, have a chill job at minimum pay at a movie theater and watch free movies.
Although my tip money would pay for movies and then some hahaha.

Hostess would seem easy. Servers make the monies.

My workdays would be weekdays and weekends...meaning I won't have free time unless they don't schedule me for a day. My life would be work work work.
However, money money money!
I'm hoping 5 hour weekend shifts so I can r&r before Monday starts again at the office.

I rather have Sunday be free all day. Church chill and just chillax!

>> May is going to be hectic.
Moving more stuff, finding a 2nd job, BOYs birthday, mothers day, dental conference.

Thank You for all that I have.
SPARK

>> Going to check out glasses today. I want the black plastic rectangle looking ones-nerdy, but, sxy. ;)

>> Moving stuff today also. Woo!

>> So sleepy...
What a long week.
Imma hate next weeks schedule.
Too complicated. Argh.

>> I have been so tired from work ahhhh!
I wake up each morning wanting to say I'm not showing up to work. Just so I can sleep in the cozy warm bed.
That will be too many times and that will lead me to being fired.

Forced to go. It's the dollar signs...

>> I want this brown pattern for my bedsheet. The middle brown pillows. Looks silky, I like!

>> My new hobby will be arts-
watercolor : paint : color pencils : ink

Along with that I'm going to start my dream clothing line. Yippi!
I need to research sewing machines and find a good fabric store with the material I want.
Does Walmart have clothing stencils for cutting fabric? Imma need that to start off as my size.
Here I come Walmart to see what cheap deals you have!

Project One: Multi-Color Pastel Dress
100% soft cotton material with elastic. There's a million and one different cotton materials out there. I'll be violating every fabric I see to make sure its the right one, ha!

SPARK

>> I've been doodling how my room would be like.

I still would have to shop for more things. I want to get a white thick satin feel ribbon of some sort to tie a bow around a rolled up towel for the bathroom to give it a little cuteness and classy look.

My room setup is pretty dull.
Seabird has a medium-dark ugly blue carpet in my room. I must get a light lively looking rug to cover most of the room. Perhaps from Urban Outfitters?
I'm going to get hot pink drapes to give my room a splash of color.
She stuck the big brown bookcase in my room. Brown old feel. Blah! At least I can save money and use this for now. Same with the bedding stuff. It's a twin size bed. Frickin' small. I like to sprawl and not feel as though Imma roll off.

Going to find some cute art and frame it on my wall or just make my own using pastel and cute colors.
I misplaced my RDA license certificate. So I can't hang that up on the wall as a reminder of what I have achieved. =/


>> I found a favorite artist with watercolor, acrylic, pencils, ink work!

www.furiousfeng.blogspot.com

The watercolor work is divine!!
I have no idea how to even use those art tools to create the perfect looking blends, lines, and everything! Its like, did she use a color pencil there or a harsh watercolor lining, or something else ya know? And it's like did she watercolor 1st then ink all around and color in with pencils or more watercolor?
She needs to start a class lol.

I want to make watercolor backgrounds, draw something cute, and then write a bible scripture. That can be framed. =D
Maybe start a store muahahaha.

SPARK

>> Feels good to get paid.

>> Yay Tim Urban still in it!

>> Today was staff meeting hour. I have homework til the next meeting.

1. Think of a phrase for the dental office. A slogan, to be our "brand."

2. And a way to thank our patients. Like a patient appreciation day or something.

I got a couple phrases in mind. Hehe.

Good day, thanks Jesus.
SPARK

>> I'm going through color theme phases. I am leaning towards mahogany wood furniture with a hint of red in it. That's mahogany right? Brown wood with red tint. I like the slick glaze looking wood, not the real wood where you can get a splinter sliding your finger across.
Light carpet and mahogany furniture make a cute elegant combo.
I like this stool. It still has the curvey look to it. Looks contemporary. That'll go under my vanity desk.
This bench hidden shoe organizer with storage space on the side would be great for a guest to sit on. Just find a soft cushion and wah-lah! It's a 2-in-1. =D

I still need to find a wooden stool for the bathroom. Tall enough where I can see myself over the sink mirror. Gotta check out the "counter/bar height mahogany stools."

I am so <3'n interior decorating. I think Extreme Home makeover is on tonight. ;)

SPARK

>> I want this in my room!
I dig the white curvey wood style. =)

I can't wait to move and decorate my room!

SPARK

>> So turns out when it came down to picking an assistant, they picked me because of financial reasons. Either hire a 20 year veteran for more money or train a girl with potential for less. And I thought I was just awesome and beat out the other girl. :( vain vain yes I know.

>> I just realized I make an extra dollar more than a couple friends from school. They are more pro than me. They need to ask for a raise. =)

I was going to do $15. But, I figure might as well try and go high and if they don't want that they can lower it. Since they took my $16 asking, no bargaining needed. Hehe. Yay!

If I pursue nursing, I want at least $32. I hear it goes hirer when you work with the elderly. Maybe because they're more of a pain in the bootay?
'C'mon grandpa-take your meds, don't you dare throw them pills at me. Alright that's it!' Hahahaha. Gotta lug them around.

>> Darn the craigslist seller for selling me something while I'm on my way and then have a text later saying they already sold it and said sorry. I was crushed. May you rot. May you get your bad bad bad bad bad karma!
Grr!

FIZZ

>> Night.

>> Bah I feel sick. My coworkers were coughing and all icky this week. Now I'm feeling it. Argh.

So tired. Work seemed so long today. Baaah!

FIZZ

>> The manager is snappy and scary. She's talking with the front office girl and goes "that's not what I'm asking, what did I ask" - short tempered trying to get an answer. She totally plays the "I'm doing great" happy line when talking with patients and I know her dark side, it makes me go pahleaase!
She looks like the mean kind too. Ahhh. Be skerred.

>> I went to seabirds'. I am getting a twin size bed, dresser that fits into the closet, lamp, bookcase, big ol wall desk. And if I don't want it, its okay. :) imma take the bed and dresser for sure! I got a yellow rectangular desk from craigslist for 5 bucks that is simple and still cute. Hers is a wooden old schoolish desk with drawers and goes up the wall. Meh. If I find myself having too much crap that needs to get tucked away, imma have to get that desk haha. Or keep my own table and get a file cabinet. The bookcase is tall and old wood too. Eh.
Whatevs I'm happy either way.

The room is small, but, not as small as I have seen of other places. So this works. I get a window just need drapes. If I am in my pink faze still I will get pink fo sho lol.
Not sure which way to face the bed. The white sofachair prolly won't work. Not roomy enough to stick it in a corner.
:( oh wells. My next place will hehehe.
The bathroom has a big square mirror and she says she's going to get a round mirror. I actually like square-I can see more of me. The medicine cabinet is too thin for my blue and purple bins. Don't know where to place them now.
I can't decide where to put all my shoes. I don't want them out in the open in my room cause its not cute. My closet would be full since the dresser takes up floor space. Maybe get a vertical shoe hanging rack in those plastic material squares?

The gym has a few treadmills, couple stairmasters, couple weight machines, and couple wierd looking machines. The pool is a small rectangle and nothing fancy with the jacuzzi.

I met up with seabirds daughter and she's cool. I can get along with her. She brought her 2 year old, he's a cutie pie.
Gonna go double date with her hubby for some sushi, yummy! My favorite!

>> I like Tim from American Idol. He has that "Tim style" kinda like Jason Mraz. Much better looking though. Randy was talking bout his hair looking like the beatles. I'm like, that's his normal hairstyle.
Crystal Bowersox is overrated.

Jesus is Lord and Saviour
SPARK

>> So it's a Tuesday.
Gonna have coffee with seabirds daughter after work. Then drop off my application and check out the room again.
Gotta check-
Light switches or do I need to bring lamps?
Which way my furnished bed will face in the room?
Any dressers I get or just a closet door?
Measurements!
And look at the bathroom for cabinet drawer space and medicine-mirror cabinet.

Woo hoo! It's only minutes away from work! No month 25 minute drives and passing slow drivers.

SPARK

>> Since my doc is out and another docs assistant is out for the day, I am taking over her shift. I thought the doc was going to bite my head off saying how bad I was assisting, but, at the end of the procedure, he said I did a good job. Totally blanking, I just said 'wow really? I thought you were gonna discipline me'...omg I was trying to say something like 'verbal train me in what I did wrong', that just came out wrong-discipline? Ahhh!

So I totally was a moron and didn't say thank you. I was just in shock I got positive feedback. Ahhh!

At the end of the day, I will say thank you for all your help. That should cover it.
Yup.

Jesus Is Risen!

 1(A)Now after the Sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first day of the week, (B)Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to look at the grave.

 2And behold, a severe earthquake had occurred, for (C)an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled away (D)the stone and sat upon it.

 3And (E)his appearance was like lightning, and his clothing as white as snow.

>> Happy Easter!

Just wanted to make a separate entry.
The 3rd day He rose.

Matthew 28

 4The guards shook for fear of him and became like dead men.

 5The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid; for I know that you are looking for Jesus who has been crucified."

 6"He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said. Come, see the place where He was lying."

 7"Go quickly and tell His disciples that He has risen from the dead; and behold, He is going ahead of you into Galilee, there you will see Him; behold, I have told you."

 8And they left the tomb quickly with fear and great joy and ran to report it to His disciples.

 9And behold, Jesus met them and greeted them. And they came up and took hold of His feet and worshiped Him.

 10Then Jesus said to them, "Do not be afraid; go and take word to My brethren to leave for Galilee, and there they will see Me."

 11Now while they were on their way, some of the guard came into the city and reported to the chief priests all that had happened.

 12And when they had assembled with the elders and consulted together, they gave a large sum of money to the soldiers,

 13and said, "You are to say, 'His disciples came by night and stole Him away while we were asleep.'

 14"And if this should come to the governor's ears, we will win him over and keep you out of trouble."

 15And they took the money and did as they had been instructed; and this story was widely spread among the Jews, and is to this day.

>> For the bathroom, my bathroom setup is kind of like that photo. On the right side you can barely see a stool with a towel. That's where I got that stool idea from.

As for my room, since I have wooden floors, a white theme would be cute. I totally dig a fat sofa chair! The corner setup is a good idea. Gotta see if my room can handle it space wise to do that.

I will get either a 3 shelf or 4 shelf bookcase.
Either:
1. Stick the 3 shelf bookcase in my closet and use it as a dresser drawer.
2. Stash all my papers and book junk in 4 shelf instead of getting a filing cabinet. Maybe add a plant on a shelf to look better? Or use the last shelf as a shoe organizer?

Can't get both since I can't afford both. :'(

>> Ooh I just remembered my bathroom has a shower tub!
That means after scrubbing down the tub I can fill the tub and add the fizz bubble balls, rose petals, and sip on a drink relaxing by candlelight.

Seabird(c bird) told me she was working on painting the walls and getting a new floor for the bathroom. I told her I like the beige or lightest tan color. Something simple will be fine. It better be bathroom wall paint where moisture won't mold up the walls. The slick wall kind if you know what I mean.

I am well sure seabird will have a hissy fit at how much water I use. Deep baths, washer dryer usage to extreme(each load each week: scrubs, jeans and dark pants-well biweekly since I don't expect wearing jeans everyday-, bedsheets, shirts-colored and whites, loungewear).
Aside from water usage, electricity will have a rise. Dryers, computer, and esp. tv.
$25utilities+$12dvr is too much of a bargain! Using a community coined operated washer dryer would be about $1.50 per wash and dry...
$3x(18 loads a month)=$54 a month!
Outrages!
If I cut back everything biweekly except scrubs, $3x12=$36.
But, I like clean! Fresh clean clothes and bed. :)

If the claws come out, she's gonna be a hawk instead of a seabird. ;P

>> Interior decorating is what I'm searching for online. I want to get a wooden stool for the bathroom. I will put a rolled towel on it and a glass candle for a contemporary look. When I put my makeup and do my hair, I'll pull move it in front of the mirror and sit.

Or if it will fit in my room-a vanity desk with mirror. I like either white or mahagony dark wood. Cute, chic, and styling!

I want a white fat cozy armchair sofa in my room. Something for my guest to sit on instead of a bed and hard computer desk chair.

>> I really have to go back soon and get measurements and see what cabinets are available. Else I'm going to have to get a dresser for clothes and cabinet for linens.

Designing my way home...
SPARK

>> I don't want to be a nurse anymore.
I watched half of the new series, Miami Medical and so scared/grossed out of emergencies.

I can't take those visuals and problems.

:(

>> Totally Trader Joe's garlic fries'd out!
Blaaah eww.

I will stick to the TJ's sweet potato fries with balsamic vinegrette. I had salad and started dipping my fries in the leftover dressing with parmasean cheese powder. Yum!

>> My nickname for my roomie is going to be "c bird" haha. I was talking with BOY about what to call her. He said I shouldn't call her Miss then her name because she wants to feel young. Her name starts with C and last name has bird in it...so we were joking around saying 'what up C' all ghetto and then I remembered her last name and 'c bird' came about. Chirp chirp haha.

She changed the move date to May 1st to do some bathroom work. Upgrading?

Man that's a long time! I was looking forward to getting off work, drive a few minutes, and plop on my bed for a nap.

The bright side is that will give me time to see if the doc and manager still want me to work for them after working a few weeks.

>> Now that I will have DVR I can record shows while I'm at work and purposely miss shows to go hangout instead. That means~ The Hills, OLTL, GH, Disney teeny bopper shows, Ellen, Regis & Kelly, food shows on play when I'm chilling indoors. Woo hoo!

Good Friday
SPARK

>> Why is it all that I can think about is my new room?

I wanna go there already. My rent starts the 15th. It gives me 2 weeks to earn more monies. :)

It may be 3 weeks til I get another paycheck if the pay period ends in 2 weeks since I didn't work this week. =/

Need some decorating ideas for my room-photo frames, posters, painted wall colors?

The last thing I want is a cluttered room. So the most space, the better!

Treadmill and elliptical at the gym will be my best friends on the weekends.
Swimming on sunny hot days.

DVR will be used to its full capacity.

Woo!

SPARK

>> Didi was my favorite! The day she sang in Hollywood with her guitar to be in Top 24 or whatever # is her style! Not R&B. I can see her sell records. Kinda Natasha Bedingfield more folky.

Argh. If she goes that direction kinda like tonight, she be good to go.

>> I am superly excited to move!
I will have lots of decorating to do.
Gotta make another list of things to get. It's smaller, so, that means I have to check out how much space I have exactly 1st before I go out and buy stuff.

My roomie-I should think of a nickname for her, wears shoes indoors. I'm not that kind of person. Its wood floors, maybe that's why she does it?

I will prolly get:
- shoe rack table
- dirty pile hamper from IKEA
- file cabinet of some sort for my desk to put all my books and papers
- decorations for my wall??

>> I got these cute Dora Explorer playing cards for a dollar at Target. Super cute mini deck. Colorful and slick feel-not paper.
Get it!

>> My baby chateau roomie tried to get on my room discount. She started talking about percentages and how it would cost her and the other roomie more money if I get the discount. Um hello! That just means you pay you're regular rent! There's nothing more you would pay if I get the discount. Dumb!

I forwarded the email telling her how the landlord is only giving me the discount and only me. That shut her up, hahaha. She says, " If that is how Kevin and the owners meant for the split to go, could you please pay your portion then of the difference how they figured it--$105?  I frankly do not have enough money for all of my bills this month plus extra rent, so I would appreciate it.  "

Wait a minute...you can't afford your bills and you were trying to ride my discount tail in order to help yourself?? Sinking to low levels, boo! Shame!

Anyways, I'm ready to move out before April-I really don't have much to take and gather. I rather take my $105 and put it in my pocket instead of having an empty room for another month.

April 15 is my new roomie move in date.
Hmm what to call this new place?
"Baby Chateau" is so cute. This new place doesn't deserve such name.
Uhh...
It's furnished, small, an older lady is my roomate, less updated looking as far as room/bathroom, and kitchen goes. Hm I see an old trend.
Antique Chateau?

But, "chateau" is so rich sounding.
And this condo is no where near richness.

I'll think about it more or have my friend come up with a new name haha.

>> It's settled.
I'm moving in to the furnished place. No need to waste with bedroom delivery monies. The utilities flat rate is a steal!
$37! Other places want $50-$100. No thanks!

Me and the 63 year old gonna have a blast!

You might have that wrinkley skin and hunched image of the lady with a cane, but, she aint. Her hair is did, good skin. Walks normal.
So I won't be a caregiver I can assure you this.
Hehe.

SPARK

>> So, I checked out the condo. The lady was nice and warming. Its just that the whole place was small for a 2bed/2bath. I saw online other complexes within the community photos of the interior of each home. Some were small and the other one I liked was big and up to date looking. They both had the same amount of sq. feet, but, it doesn't look the same.

Eh. I dunno what to do. This place isn't bad vibe-wise. Just a bit cramped. Walk in and you're in the tiny living room and nestled to the right is the kitchen. To the left are the bedrooms and bathroom.

The PROS:
- Although it's the main bathroom that anyone can go in if guests come over-it's all mine. The other roomie has her own in her master bedroom. At least I would get to decorate it.

- I don't need buy kitchen appliances. She said she has everything there. So plates and pans to my use. Thanks lady!

- I get her daughters bed, desk, and bookcase if I want it. She's moving out.

- I have to pay $25 in utilities, but, that is wifi, cable, electricity, and water. She had to start paying for water recently. Sucks, cause I'm a huge water consumpsiourer. I like my long warm showers and my electricity guzzler hair tools.
She said the amount in utilities don't even cover 1/3 of what the whole thing is for all the utilities. I guess they're trying to get someone in there quick. She didn't seem to mind it much.

- I get a small tv with cable in my room. Imagine a big wide laptop screen for size. Better than nothing right?

It's decently furnished.

I would be in my room a lot.
Nothing will ever compare to my spacious baby chateau with huge bedroom, dual sinks across from each other with cute vanity lights and lots of drawer space, wooden spacious closet, mini hallway of shower to the toilet room with a million and five cabinets space. *sigh*

>> I would be there for only 6 months or so then I would move with my boyfriend. The condo is convenient to my workplace. Within mile and half. So no worries of huge rainstorms and trying to enter the freeway of hazardness.

Okay for some reason all this is convincing me to want this haha. There isn't a view like my chateau, but, I can deal without one. I should be working and if I aint I should be resting and if not hanging out-I got the wonderful cable tv.

Tee hee.

Ok I'm starting to really like it. Haha.

SPARK

>> If I still had my baby chateau to rent, I would feel so spoiled. And when I move out after lease is up, I would have to have that upscaleness or better for my next baby chateau.

I checked out a roomie ad in a condo for $550+$50 utilities. It was waaaay small bedroom. This was one of those "2bed/2bath plus extra room, but, let's squeeze it to make it 3 beds" condo. Ugh! The room bigger than mine already occupied rents for $550, scandalous! I get a smaller room and still pay the same as someone who gets more space?! No thanks!

The condo seems outdated because I saw the master bedroom and bath. The dual sinks are right next to each other kinda ugly. So was the boxey closet. Basically my baby chateaus bathroom and closet are 100000x better and elegant looking. The best I've seen so far besides those millionaire mansions.

I'm going to keep trying to find a decent and fair priced chateau.

>> Fashion.

When I move out, I can wear whatever I want when I go out and about.
I see myself going more on a fashion extreme style.
Dark panty hose with skirts and heels, belts around the waist on button up long shirt dress with short shorts under, revealing dresses with cuteness still attached.
I call this extreme cause it would be outta my usual comfort, but, I like the style of it!
And lots of accessories-hair, bracelet, necklace, and a swanky bag for finishing touches.

Yay! Fashion.
SPARK

>> I'm looking for places near my new work area so that way I can save on gas. Which means more monies yeeaahh! =P

I found a roomie ad that's super close to work! I could probably go home within 5 during lunch and chill, then go back. ;)

She doesn't have pictures, but, the complex has pool, gym, parking, and fireplace. Besides it's in a slight upscale area so has to be safe and non termitey I hope.

I will prolly try and check the place out tomorrow in person, go with a friend.
It's $550/month plus $50 in utilities of wifi and electric/gas. I think water might be free. Imma have to ask if it's a flat fee or by usuage. That's a lot. I should ask how much the whole condos rent is to so I know I'm getting a fair deal in rent and not paying more than my share.
It's 3 bed/2 bath and I would have to share a bathroom. Blaaah! I dig decorating my bath and it being clean to my bum and calling it my own!!
Oh wells, this will bring my rent share down. I wonder how big my room is. If it's those 3 bed/2 baths, but, really "2 beds/2 bath with a small extra room for a computer or try to make it a bedroom"-I'm not sure if I really want it for $550. That seems more like a $400 room.
My baby chateau is more of a 2b/2b make that extra room a bedroom and call it 3b/2b!
The gym onsite may have a fee associated with it. Argh. It better be awesome! I will be testing out the ellipticals fo sho'! If they got 'em!

>> My vegetarian days only lasted maybe a week. I had In&Out last night. Fries were cooked under par. I should ask for well done next time.

One getting a job step done, move to a place next.
Thank You Jesus
SPARK

>> Ahem.

I'm full-time employed yay!

The sad news is they let go one of the girls who I liked and thought was cool!

I wonder why?

It can't be me right? Couldn't they let her go a week later? Its like, you're hired, she's fired.

The girl printed me a map of a sushi place and gave it to me using the office printer paper. She gave it to me in front of the manager. The manager was looking at me all 'what is that eyed' staring as I folded it into my pocket. Then I'm all smiley fun and saying its her favorite sushi place. The magager got up and kinda rolled her eyes shook her head and muttered something.

I can totally see the manager saying the same lines of letting me go. She's one of those stern ones who can pretend to be cheerful. Basically, be scared!

Thank You Jesus for this opportunity!

>> On my lunch break. I kinda will miss this place. I was more speedy today, but, dropped an instrument and kinda slow in handing instruments.
I feel like I waste a million gloves here. I don't have all my materials, so, I would have to take off my gloves and grab with my hand or hands and put another glove(s) on. I could reput the glove back on, but, I could contaminate the glove and it touches my skin...so yeaah.

We'll see where this interview leads.
:)

>> Still surviving my interview. At times I feel like I can work with this doc as a career, at times no.

>> I really hate working.
I really hate getting up early in the morning.
I really hate waking in middle of night and having to see what time it is since I woke, to see how much time I have left to sleep.
I really hate not loving the place I work.
I really hate the lost opportunity to work at that pedo office I temped at. At least a couple days of the week I start at 10am and the others just front office duties.

But, I still love Him.

>> Tomorrow is the start of my work interview.
So nervous! I hate temp crown making! At least general dentistry time flies better.

I have been looking at new living spots. Dunno if I can trust roomies that fast. So almost $1,000 a month is hecka pushing it. It would take 3 weeks of paycheck for it! Let alone I still need money for gas, food, clothes, phone bill, cards bill, and health stuff, and car insurance and maintenance.

Ay yi yi.

FIZZ

>> Ok I've figured it out!

She says $1065 for rent cause she's prolly thinking $1600-$535(owners discount)=$1065
and that we all split that amount to our portions.
But, nooooo! Sorry, that is incorrect thinking method.

It IS actually $640-$535=$105 for ME discounted
and the roomies pay their same share of $480($1600-my share of $640=$960/2=$480)

Again, don't ride on my discount tail coat.
Thanks and bye bye.

I'll be sure to invite annoying friends muahahahaha!!

>> This brings me to another trip!
Dude $1600 down to $1065??? And I only got $40 discount on my rent after that??
Omgee!

Okay so say its 1600 initial rent for us 3,
$1600-original rent of my portion $700= $900
Between them two, making $450 each.

With $1065-$640 discounted(the roomie came up with this amount for me after "her calculations" when she learned we get a discount for having prospective buyers come in-i was okay when she told me, not sure how much our whole rent discount was at the time-i just learned it thru these emails)=$425
Between them two making $222.50 each
Wtf???
They get $225 each in discounts and I got $40?

Oh no no no bich!

If this roomie thinks she can get away, best think twice! And if she can't get it, she needs to keep thinking til she does!

>> This roomate is a trip!!
I emailed her asking how she got $198 percentage wise.

She says,
"The way I figured out the $198 was to take the percentage of the entire rent that we each pay now(the $1600), and I multiplied that by the discounted rent ($1065) to see what your rent would have been this month ($426).  I then subtracted that from your current rent of $640 (again, rounded to nearest dollar) to see what the difference would be.  Doing it outside of Excel just now, I calculated $212, so slightly different. "

...
Can't this dumb B understand:
$640 current rent for ME - $535 owners willing to take out = $105 ????

She trying to cash in on MY discount and make something off of it.

...
I emailed landlord asking if the owners can pay my $640 split so I won't have to pay a penny.
The landlord says,
"I am not sure how the 3 of you are doing the calculations. This is our intent. We felt that your rent and only yours should be decreased for the second month - because you are the one who has to move twice in less than 3 months. However, we have no power to apply this rule as we rent to all of you under 1 lease. The other tenants have been there for a year or more. They did receive the proper 60 day notice and therefore do not require any rent rebates. Nor should they expect one. So the $535 decrease ought to be applied to your total rent and no one else's."

...
Yeah decrease to me biatch!! I was hoping he would straight up see the math calculation and email the roomie it's $105 if anything I should pay, but, he didn't. The landlord "cc:" the owners, so, we'll see if they can pay MY $640. Then again it's not 'paying' cause its their own-they just won't get money.


This dumb B got me pissed!
Imma tell her bout the correct and real fair way to subtract, none this multiply stuff that makes NO SENSE what so ever.

Stop trying to ride my discount tail coat!

>> Ohhh heck nah !!

Email from roomie:
"So, I have been trying to figure out what the fair way to do this would be, since we don't split rent evenly between the 3 of us.  If you did not pay rent at all, Heather and I would get stuck paying more than our current rent.  Would you be ok with paying the difference percentage-wise?  It would come to $198.71 for rent--Heather and I would make up the rest, not getting as much of a break but closer to fair.  Also, since you haven't been here nearly as much, we could discount the amount you pay for the electric bill and the parking fee, etc. too.  Would you be ok with just an even $210?  Let me know if this is ok. :)"

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Oh heck nahhh!
What's this percentage bull?!?!
My discounted rate is $640.
The owners decided 1/3 rent or $535 will be paid aka free for me.
That leaves a $105 difference!

And they say they "would make up the rest, not getting as much of a break but closer to fair".

Um..? surplus! Make up the rest?? You're saying $198.71 is still not enough!
Psssh!
That's more than what I would pay for my difference. Waay more!

Btw, I paid last month $12 for a private parking spot and never got it. How about I get that $12 back huh!!

So NO IT IS NOT OKAY!!!

FIZZ

>> It was good my friend got that temp agency job the other day. All the peeps there did temporary crowns day in and day out. I wouldn't survive that for 8 hours. She said it was one dentist and lots of assistants making crowns. Hmm, either he's a specialty crown maker office or he's milking peoples money and saying they need a crown(s) for decay purposes when it's not necessary. Docs can make a thousand on one crown. That doc is so money-eyed!
I really don't want to do temp crowns. I suck at that perfection duty. I think that's what I am doing next week for my work interview blaah.
Even if I hate it on the first day I got/must/have/force to stay for the rest of the week cause that is guaranteed paycheck!

>> My baby chateau will be rent free April. Got an email from landlord saying since I just moved in and there's a buyer it's not fair for me. So, they are taking $535(1/3 of total rent) out.
That is...if the roomies stay for April and not move out at end of March.

My rent is actually $640(suppose to be $700, since it was on the market and buyers were coming in to see-an inconvience to us roomies, it got lowered). My room has its own bath and much more space; my rent is higher-not evenly split. If the roomies ask me to pay $105 difference, imma be mad and bring people over to drive them mad muahaha!

>> Cold leftover penne pasta + italian dressing + parmesean cheese + parsley flakes = yummy side dinner!

Alfredo pasta is my favorite to cook!
Pesto is the best to dine out. ;)

Mmm.

>> Eating cake for breakfast should be a crime. =P I had my sweets this morning. Red velvet cake. It was my first time having it. What is so special about it? I couldn't taste a certain flavor to relate to it. I still <3 Pillsbury Funfetti!

>> Hmm what to do today if they don't call me in for work....

>> Full of Souplantation blaaah!
Blueberry muffin is so good here. Soft, warm, and a crisp muffin top. Mmm. The tomato soup of the month was alright. Nordstrom is the best. Yup! With the breadstick, yup!
Full and have a work interview next week,
SPARK

>> The "yes" office manager said she didn't talk with the doc when I called her yesterday and said will definitely call me back later in day. Well, she hasn't. Today I searched online for jobs, and the office put an ad for front office at their other location. This means, they don't want me. If they did, it would in town. Imma have to scratch this one off the list and keep my search going.

>> The buyers backed out in escrow. However, there is a 2nd buyer who wants to check the place out one more time before locking in a deal. I kind of don't want my baby chateau no mo' because it is costly. I don't have a job and bills to pay. Maybe moving out in a month or two would be better than putting down some hundreds on rent.

>> So I checked my voicemail after watching some Amazing Race-great travel show btw! It was the temp agency letting me know there is a job opportunity tomorrow that could lead to permanant and to call back.
I couldn't call back. My parents would catch me on the phone, they don't know I had quit my job long ago. They think I'm at the same job going to work, but, instead I am actually going to the BOYs and waiting for temp agency to call from there...if they don't call, I go on with my day.

Anyways! Yeah couldn't call back. I checked my messages and my friend from dental school told me she got a call from the temp place for work tomorrow and possible job-but it was 2 different people who called us with same # to call back at. So, it could pretty much be the same doc or coincidence of 2 different docs.
I am going to call tomorrow once I leave the house!! Gotta see if it was the same doc and update them on my situation of possibly getting hired from the "yes" doc office. I'm going to call the "yes" office later tomorrow since they open late.

This draws to an odd path for me...

1. Say that the "yes" peeps don't want me.
2. The agency makes me go "work interview" at the same doc my friend is going into tomorrow another day... Do you see where this is going yet??

3. What do I do?? It would be like stealing her potential job. Even though they called me first, she picked up.

Do I go in anyways and have the doc pick one of us in the end? Survival of the fittest right? My friend can't be mad at me-we are in the same agency.

Or say,
'hey friend, I can't do this between us, you have it'
and walk away?

Ahhhhh.
It IS survival of the fittest. It's up to the doc to choose anyways, so, might as well try right? To the best RDA?

>> Oh and I found out Dr. Po hired my classmate at $10 during training, $11 after. I doubt I would have wanted that at such a low pay. I got bills homie!

So good riddance!

>> Searching for a new place to live online. Found a couple I dig. Well they're actually in the same condo complex my baby chateau is.
One is 2 bed/ 1 bath for $1250. Top floor woo!
The other is 1/1 for $1000. Top floor also.
The world is scary out there, so, finding a trustworthy roomie is hard.
But, with my own place-my own toilet cleaning business, can have whoever I want over and when, my rules, feels like home.
With a roomie-cheaper rent, not scary during the night lol I am skerred of the dark, an extra friend.
So, we'll see who's paths I cross and yeah...
Still need a job 1st!
Going to check out the places in person to see how it all is and if it's worth the cost.
On an awesome room mission
SPARK

>> Rode my bike with BOY. Overindulged mexican food. Blaaaah. Fullness. I had the milaneza burrito. I have had waay better mila burritos, this one was full of tomatoes and beans. Milaneza is breaded thin steak.
If I had my own burrito it would be:
Milaneza meat, guacomole, salsa fresca or pico de gallo, rice, cheese, and sour cream. Mmmm.
>> I wonder if I should do the roomie route or my own place. At least with roomies I won't be alone.
>> I'm going to apply to more dental jobs, I can't wait for them to call me.
I need to make money now!
So full and lazy.
FIZZ

>> The office manager hasn't contacted me yet. Why not?!? She wasn't at the office today when I called today.
I need a job.

FIZZ

>> Plus when I was work interviewing the front office, it went by sooo fast.

The place I'm going to work feels forever since kids appointments are half hour each for xrays and cleaning. So after a few I do and all that hard work, it barely passes 2 hours. Ugh 8 hour back work sucks like that.

At least with general dentistry, a procedure is usually like an hour long. And the stuff we do time usually flies by without knowing it-fillings/crown preps. So an 8 to 10 patient day depending on procedures.
Much more relaxed and time consuming. I want that.
Not kids crying cause I want an xray and they won't open or they don't want their teeth cleaned. Lots of screaming and crying when that happens. They cry/scream and tell the parent-"next time we'll try it again and the doc will just do a visual exam."
Blah.
Some girls there do a better job getting them behaved than me.

Hmm. If my friends workplace wants me for front, I kinda want to now just to get away from the crying. Besides they pay more which means easier for me to pay bills and not need a 2nd job weekend shift.

Don't know what to do. The 'yes' will be cool because of the girls and office manager. My friends place has cool girls, but, on my toes with the doc and o.m. and have a feeling they can pull the "it's not working out with you" on me. The 'yes' peeps like me lots regardless so I don't think they would let me go. Or would they?

Ahhhhhh. Loca!

>> I was on you tube and came across a 20/20 story on a kids dentist office giving kids treatment they don't need to make money since insurance companies don't give them much(production).
I have just been traumatized. I knew stuff like this happens, but, for it to be real and just the thought it could happen in my new office.

I rather just be in general dentistry not pediatrics. I don't like hearing kids wailing that would traumatize me all day.

I want to go do front office now away from all that drama.

>> Okaay.
I had a 3 day working interview in the front office, checking in&out patients, answered calls,called patients to set appointments, insurance money stuff. The 1st day was okay. Didn't get that great vibe from the doc and office manager. They can easily get someone else to replace me if they wanted to. 2nd day was better. I didn't do too much checking out patients computer work. 3rd day I pretty much messed up a lot. Not asking patients if they have different insurance or even checking to see if they do. This one patient got her cleaning done and afterwards the office manager asked if she had insurance and she gave the o.m. the card which turned out to be insurance the office doesn't accept. Meaning her cleaning will cost her a couple benjamins and then some.
The o.m. got on my case a few time throughout the day...not paying attention to the schedule, having to verbally tell and show me how to input things onto the computer. Oh man, the steps I get the idea, but, I get confused and think it's the way until it doesn't let me. Most of the time she stands behind me so I get even more nervous and misclick where I need to go. Blah.

Basically, I am sure they don't want me. Oh wells.

I called the place I temped at and said 'yes' to me to get a job there and the o.m. will talk to the doc and get back to me.

Man, imma miss the upscaleness and the pay increase.
At least I will be more happy o.m. wise.

>> So, bad news. The place that I am moving into got sold! Stupid buyers bought the place. Now I have to leave. Them jerks! My place was going to be the most awesomest room&bath&cedarwood closet ever! Evuuuurrrrr! The roomies want me to pay for April, but, why should I? I barely even have anything there. I might as well pack up and leave since I won't even be able to stay. The roomies said their name is on the lease and can't afford to pay my share. I sorta was in a contract not really. The few months the place was up for market wasn't technically a contract. It was going to be in June if the place didn't sell.

So yeah....

stupid rich people! have fun paying $300+ each month in HOA fees! Oh and good thing I didn't vacuum the place! Imma leave it dirty for you! Besides the last roomie left it just like that!
I should write a note saying,

'I strongly dislike you. This room is cursed muahahahahaha.'

That wouldn't be considered a threat.

Anyways...

major

FIZZ

my place is baby chateau no mo'

>> Yeah I forgot bout this thang...

That's what I get when "working" and coming home tired.

Ttya'll later!

>> I have hiigh hopes, I have hiigh hopes. =)
Tomorrow will be a good good day.
>> Watched some Oscars. I'm happy with majority of the awards. Was it just me or did the beginning monologue poke fun at black people with Precious?
>> There's an ad for RDA near my new room place. I should swing by Tuesday if tomorrow doesn't want me back the next day or if they're settling for more candidates to interview.
I know if I try for this new one near my "baby chateau" then the doc who already said yes will get the push off from me and I can lose it for not asking for job back in time.

Nonetheless to opportunities,
SPARK

>> Parenthood on NBC was aiight. Had that Gilmore Girl appeal to it. Don't think it will be coming back next season. I'd still watch it. Just doesn't seem like a real high rating series.
I recognized the chick from "American Dreams" some years ago. She looks the same, taller though.

>> I keep flipping back and forth where I want to work.
Risk of losing one job for another-and may end up losing the one I am going after if it doesn't work out with me.
Full-time vs. part-time.
Maybe employed at high pay vs. guaranteed, but, low pay job.
With the front office position it will feel like my office. I basically have the whole wooden decor reception(waiting) room to myself and the manager right behind me in another room. It'll be as if I own it.
I want to take a pic of me in the chair behind a big desk all upscale like, lol.
I gotta rawk it Monday.
I-got-to-rawk-it.
SPARK

>> Horoscopes are on target most of the time. They seem to write it so I can take something in my life and relate to that.
"Live the role" was part of the horoscope. That could mean the upscale front office job. I have my doubts on performing well since it is high class and their standards are well perfected. Maybe if I believe that I can belong upscale and believe I can rawk the front desk and just "live the role" as I work interview, I can sure well be "living the role" months to come or even years.

Just smile a lot, sit straight, do things fast(anything from shoving files back, picking up the phone to ask them to hold, quick on everything!).

I think I'm looking more on the positive side even though I have the risk of losing the other job I am putting aside for now for a better opportunity and not knowing when another will arise.

Gotta believe He has a path for me.

>> Hmm. I realized if I go to the doc I temped at, my hours would conflict on the night classes I want to take coming up soon. Since it is part-time, maybe the days for school I won't have to work. But, if they call me in on a school day, I would miss my class-well be late an hour or so.

I can't rely on a summer class cuz of budget cuts and spring semester is the only time they give out the degrees.

>> The other dilemma besides time conflict is waiting around to see what happens. There were already working interviews at the place that already said yes to me. If I don't get it fast, they'll hire someone and imma be out of a job with them! And if Monday doesn't work out, I'm 2 jobless!!

Ahhh! We all know what happened when I put off an office-too late and goes to someone else.

BOY will get very dissappointed having all these jobs lined up and I have not one~officially. This makes me look bad. Not so good future wife material.

What to do what to do.

ONE: stick out til Monday and see how I do. If they want me for Tuesday stay with them and risk losing the other job who said yes already. And also risk this new place if they later decide to want another person at their upscale place.

TWO: stick out til Monday and if they don't want me for Tuesday-go back to my old doc and ask for the job again. This will hopefully lead to permanent employment if they hadn't already picked out a girl from the work interviews.

THREE: if all don't work out, keep temping til I find one which will be who knows when.

>> I am freakin out cuz front office is super new duties, I gotta catch on quick and learn asap, and be able to catch all calls even if I'm on the phone-lots of multi tasking. All my money seriously will be going to clothes. At least I'll look fashionably cute in front haha.
I hope they decide quick else the other job I got offered at will already hire someone else. So, after Monday they better tell me to stay. If they're going to look at other candidates, I'm going to my other doc that already wants me.

It's one of those if you don't like me now and want to try others, that means you're not really into me....so peace out!

With the other doc, I'll be front and back - cross trained to front duties. I'll definitely be making less and it's part-time, but, at least I am guaranteed a job.

We'll see what happens after Monday.

>> So my interview was yesterday. I should be positive, but, for this one I am sure someone else will get it. If I was hiring manager, I would get someone else. The office is upscale-wooden floor decor, frames, leather fat chairs, coffee, water, packaged biscotti. Yeaaah, real upscale. I can't be "that" girl who has that rich appeal look.
I am inexperienced in the front and don't know how much they can take of me being patient so I can do it correctly. Gotta re-learn detailed procedure names to bill correctly. Gotta take notes when learning how to fill out insurance, confirming insurance, and whatever else they want.
Very scared. If I don't instantly understand and have to ask multiple times, imma be fired for being slow. My friend warned me about that...
I better look elsewhere for jobs. Quick!

>> Fo fizzle FIZZ!
Screw Dr. A!

FIZZ

.....
>> I got a full size airbed. After opening the box I realized there was no pump included. Arrrrgh! So, there I was sitting on the floor with a deflated bed.
I'll get a pump tomorrow.
>> Dolla tree has been my new best friend recently. They have the cutest purple storage containers! I got 21 items-$22 yay!