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Pissy.
Grumpy.
Mad.
Bummed.
Angry.

Wtf!!!!

So my name aint on the pamplet book for volunteering. Wtf. So someone told me there was a non-finalized list of volunteers names and it somehow ended up in the final copy. Therefore my name wasn't on it!!!

Wtf!

I was going to show it off to my parents so that they will be proud! You might be thinkin, 'well they know you are volunteering isn't that good enough?'
No!!! No its not!
To have your name left out is a big deal, especially to me. Yeah sure my parents won't care too much, but, I freakin' do!

Now I don't even wanna volunteer the certain days I was planning to do it. I was going to do all the sign up shifts tomorrow and do my research for the whole festival...now imma just kick back and say "beeeyotch" to all of them. Its their fault!

I aint workin my a$$ off and not get credit where it should be!! F them!!!!!

Could a theory be because I didn't sign up for shifts and they excluded me out?? Um, hello, did you know what I was going to do tomorrow? How about Monday? Or Tuesday or Wednesday? Huuuh! Exactly, you don't. You didn't know I was going to spend my time studying the festival!!! So if that was the case my answer is, you didn't know! And you couldn't come up to me and say, hey, are you still in?? But you freakin didn't!!

If the excuse from the person in charge of putting the list of names is 'we didn't know exactly the names of everyone.'
Bull$hit!
There's been massive emails to the certain group of volunteers with all our names in the "to:" section of the email.

Pathetic!

You are all pathetic!

Think it wasn't a biggy?
Tell that to the person who is helping your customers come thru the door!

Ya'll $hitheads to me.

I am defiant.

Shopping shall include get-up outfits with fierceness. And ya know I should go to those volunteer days and be destructive!

Clothing policy-business attire.
Psssh!
I'm finding them stunning over-the-knee boots and strutting it with black tights, skirt, off the scale top and show them what's up!

If I aint on the list, I shouldn't even show up.

But two can play this game...
muahahahahaha!

Sleezy at it's best!

>> I have ignored this blog forever!!

Anyways, I've been spoiling myself these past few days. A good spoil is a happy girl. =)

Started off with a haircut. Its uber cute when curled. The stylist told me about the new Paul Mitchell Awapuhi line. Creates soft silky hair. I will go back when she gets the special stuff. ;)

Went to the mall and got cute wooden and plastic hair clips, pink sparkly cz earrings, and a vanilla cupcake bubble bathwash. Yay!

The next day I went back and got a cropped leather jacket. I wasn't feeling the cropped look nor the scrunchy back, but the shoulders had that quilt style I oh-so-love! I'll work with it I guess.

I'm still on a shopping crave...I really should avoid the malls else I'll feel like I will have to buy something I see that's cute. I did a good job spoiling myself. It might not seem like much, but, I haven't bought so much for myself in a long long time.
It would be really awesome if I got spoiled like that by my man...but he's on a budget. He'll spoil with eating out. Nothing materialistic over stuff I get a thrill at in the stores.. =/ oh wells.

That's why I say "I spoil myself"....

>> Oh hello you!
My my as time sure does fly.

I ended up with an A in my summer class. 10 1/2 page final essay project. Baah. At least I got my A! Woo!

>> For much more exciting news, I should be getting married in a few weeks, go house renting with the babe, and yeaaaah! Wheee! This place we're really considering has a nice spacious yard. Which means privacy and space space space! A las, bbq partaay and sippin on some wine in the jacuzzi. How lovely is that! I'm thinkin of putting a cabana back there too. Some sort of shade to sit on the chairs and chillax.

I will definitely spruce up the place...when money isn't too tight. Oh man all the stuff I can put into "our home" for decorations.

I am very excited for all this.

Thanks Jesus love You

SPARK

RIP Joseph B.
I am shocked and saddened you passed away.
We've met, but, I don't remember our convo.
You will always be the cute guy I remember.

Having cable "radio" is great!

Casting pearls "weighted" sounds rocking.

>> Every Sunday when I leave my familys home to my other place near work, I get this odd feeling.
A feeling of I miss them and want to just move back home.
A feeling of depression.
A feeling of I want to be around them and see all the stuff I been accustomed to for many many years-furniture, the view, the tv, the pictures, everything!
A feeling of not being able to see and talk to them in person, well not til the end of the week.

I get so sad coming back.
I don't want to go to work tomorrow.

In a way I want to be fired from work. That means no money. Therefore, back into the parents home.

I do admit it gets very dramaish there.

But! The love is there and being with them means a lot.

Of course Jesus Christ is my number 1 first.

>> I deeply apologize for not blogging in forever!!

I forget. Too tired. Or just plain lazy.

I am taking a summer class. Lots of reading and writing. Blaah.

Went to disneyland. Yaay.

It's official I am 3 months at my full-time job! The whole 90 day 'probation' is over and I start reaping benefits. Oh yesss!!

SPARK

p.s. Jesus is Great!
Pray and things will go well okay?

>> Went to Disneyland woot woot!
Fastpass came in handy very well.
I want to go back and stock up on mickey snacks and candy treats. I was frugile on spending. Now I'm like 'duuude I should have gotten it..!'

>> Been watching 16 and pregnant. Oh man the cut for a c-section oowwww! I don't think I can handle being a nurse. Too ouchy looking. I squirm.

Maybe I should put baby plans on hold haha. I really want one soon so I won't be old. I want to be a young mama. Crying all night baby or even day time...um no thanks child! And for sure won't give milk to my baby to sleep. Hello! Milk=sugar=baby tooth decay=baby bottle syndrome! No thanks.

>> I have been staying up late. Which means I wake late and almost late to work.

Why?

Internet.
Tv.

Baah.

>> What's dumb is if I had poor service, there wouldn't be a percentage at all! No matter how much the meal was. It be zero percent!

If servers think they can make great tips cause they got pricey food and hope customers pay a percentage of the bill, think again!

I aint giving you free money cause what I ordered was expensive. If you rely on tips, go do something else and blame yourself not the customer!

If you think well you shouldn't dine out if you won't tip well. I say I'm paying for the price of the meal! Tips are for servers who go out of their way, else they are just doing their "hourly pay". Its not like youre not getting paid per hour. You are! You are expected to bring me my drink and refill and ask how things are. Its part of your employee handbook.

If you can't accept it, do something better with your life and the salary you want you will get. If you don't, blame yourself.

Thanks!

>> Omgee!
I am like obsessed with Ali from the bachelorette shows white dress!

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBqwtccrofoQNId81BCvzdvCLYBJJsFJpIY_qoH_8FFVYl5b5uk8Zy9xrdSIbFlhFmCnJ2_vM-fLev1lCT7h-OOznGMjaOKxlc_ZZuVhyzjsrhdENXr5ih8_tu5kU99XaDzxcJuYC75QFV/s1600/aliroseceremony.png

On that blog site it says its Marc Bouwer designer, but, I'm skeptical about it. The one on bluefly it links to isn't the same design around the neck. The one Ali wears is a full circle beaded around the neck. The blue fly isn't. The champagne color looks kinda like it. But I won't say it is til I see the sides and backing. On the show it looks like chiffon is pulled from the back and front and on the side they connect above the waist. So these details will let me know who the real designer is when I see it.

Anyways I want it!!

I'll pay up to $1,000 for it! I can wear it to the court wedding and engagement photos. Photos at the real wedding a year after court wedding when we save up for a nicer one. The wedding dinner dress to move and shake around in. The shortness works!

I might have a traditional long white wedding dress separate for 'walking down the aisle'. This other dress(Ali) will go a long way for all the other stuff. That's why $1k will be worth it.


Gimme!

>> Just watched Flashpoint for the 1st time. I hate the ending. Never watching it again.

>> Chips overload!
Tried these new Cheetos mini zingers in cajun and ranch flavor. At first it was awesome. Then got nasty and too crunchy. I can see they got the idea from small leftover pieces of crunchy cheetos in a regular bags and people must have loved those bits. My teeth started getting tired of the hard crunches. Blaaah. Hot cheetos are always the best! Screw these wanna bes!

>> Today was a good work day. Less patients. Good patients. Good talks.

SPARK

>> Did some grocery shopping yesterday.
Chicken nuggets, taquitos, frozen entrees meals, capri sun, baby carrots, baked beans, curry bisque soup, tomato basil soup, hot dogs, salsa, mayo, caesar dressing.

Mmm. A couple dollars for a frozen entree meal compared to a 4 dollar fresh steak...I'll do the frozen even though it's loaded in sodium. Besides if I spend on a steak, there has to be side dishes to go with it..so add a couple more dollars. It's like that news special of how a family can get a burger for a dollar, but, when they go into the store they can't find anything healthy in that small price range. I agree, a dollar whopper jr will satisfy me more than an apple and a cheesestick.

I have a crapload of groceries I bought last week. I just get an urge to get more of other items and want to 'save' it for later. I do sure enjoy their soups! Tomato basil will come 2nd to Nordy's. And the curry bisque will come 2nd to an actual Thai restaurant. :)


Hmm what's for dinner? A frozen entree meal and baby carrots with caesar dressing. If I still get hungry-taquitos and chicken nuggets with salsa!!!

I didn't buy bread cause I dislike due dates. If I'm really feeling sandwichy, then I'll buy day of.

>> Had a couple cancellations at work. Woo hoo ! I mean, daarn!
Being stressed trying to clean up the room and getting ready for next patient sucks!

I know it's bad financially for the office. But, I like breaks!

>> Yesterday went to Nordie's with Kat. Selection of the half yearly sale wasn't that great. I did find a top that looked flirty and cute enough to buy. There wasn't a tag so the lady got a top that resembles it. Later on I saw that top in a different color and the price. Well, I saved like a dollar or so off the real sale price. Hehehe. The cafe was closed and was soo bummed I didn't get my tomato basil soup with a breadstick. :(

I saw a kid run through Macys with his skateboard and a security guy barely jogging and gave up. Lame. The guard probably didn't feel like tackling someone like a real officer would. Wuss!

For dinner, we met up with Jen. I had the steak fajita salad that comes in a tortilla shell. Now it looks massively awesome tasting...the taste wasn't quite as awesome. The salsa on the side tasted sparkling. Hmm? It was wierd.
Didn't eat much of it. It was like $13! Dang. The ingredients took $13 but sure didn't taste it. The onion rings were weak too. Battered. Blah. No fried crunch sensation. It's a mediocre place to eat if you're starving.

>> I got to organize my room and closet. So messy!

Jesus <3

SPARK

>> I love my parents so much.
This week when I go home after work, I will play chess with my father and bond that way. "So who won in basketball?" isn't going to work for long haha.

Even though my mom gets on my nerves I still love her and appreciate all that she does.

Thank You Jesus for being Great
Love You

>> I need a laptop.
Netbook or laptop?

I aint got the cash flow so that's why I am thinking about a netbook.

Quality is an issue. I don't wanna be annoyed by a slow processor waiting for things to load and windows to open. Thus, laptop.

A couple hundred $ difference. May seem like a little but it's a lot to me. Rent and bills take up my whole paycheck.

I got my bb for decent internet surf.
Just need to upload lots of pics and vids. I could swing by BOY's pad and use his laptop.

Netbooks can handle uploads...it's just the fear of it loading slowly(folders,apps) and not as capable as a laptop in video editing and high end use.

Store testers don't do justice. You can't really upload as if you were doing real work.

My old laptop would have a color bar streaming left to right when I opened a folder and my contents wouldn't appear until a long time. Its a 1gb ram gateway laptop. Just a couple years old and it sucks! Paid like 600 for it. Ugh!
I didn't know about ram back then. When I tried the netbooks opening the folders I didn't have that loading wait problem. Same ram size and probably ghz processor. I don't get it. So I'm totally hating gateway cause of it. And my internet can't connect to pages sometimes. Boo!

It seems like I get a laptop every few years. So if I got a netbook it would be cheaper. Unless there is a laptop that will last me a long time.

Is there a netbook that won't fail me quality and price wise?

>> Well when I was leaving, my mom came out the closed bathroom(I guess she was being emotional in there), she went to the bedroom, and I told her I will be back tomorrow to bring eggs and bread since they're almost overdue so they can have it. More mouths than 1 at my place.

Then she says, 'I don't care, my head is hurting a lot, you're stayin there 30 dollars a night, you're just there having fun.'
...

I am so sad. And I can see my mom has an effect on my dad. I was waving from the car to my dad as I left and could see he has emotion because of what my mom is feeling.

I do feel guilty. I get advice saying that my mom will get used it to eventually.

Maybe the fact that today I kinda threatened saying I'm going back to my other place because you keep nagging made it seem like she was guilty.

I did notice yesterday when I told her things like I just said I didn't want this or that and she would politely be like alright alright. Today I guess I bombed on her. So yesterday she was making an effort to be better.

Well no matter how much she tries to change to listen to me better, I am still moving out. I have to have freedom else my boyfriend will leave me.

I guess my mom expected me to sleep at her place all weekend and be there all weekend and only at my new place during work days...

I guess part is my fault for exploding on her and part that I am only seeing her once a week if I don't spend the whole weekend with her.

But I want to go out weekends. And those nights and not worry bout being home.

So in a way I am having fun.

But I need freedom.

If only I had the mom who was okay with me dating and going late night out I would have a better relationship with my mom and actually could stay home til I married.

Jesus please give us strength.