>> Well when I was leaving, my mom came out the closed bathroom(I guess she was being emotional in there), she went to the bedroom, and I told her I will be back tomorrow to bring eggs and bread since they're almost overdue so they can have it. More mouths than 1 at my place.

Then she says, 'I don't care, my head is hurting a lot, you're stayin there 30 dollars a night, you're just there having fun.'
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I am so sad. And I can see my mom has an effect on my dad. I was waving from the car to my dad as I left and could see he has emotion because of what my mom is feeling.

I do feel guilty. I get advice saying that my mom will get used it to eventually.

Maybe the fact that today I kinda threatened saying I'm going back to my other place because you keep nagging made it seem like she was guilty.

I did notice yesterday when I told her things like I just said I didn't want this or that and she would politely be like alright alright. Today I guess I bombed on her. So yesterday she was making an effort to be better.

Well no matter how much she tries to change to listen to me better, I am still moving out. I have to have freedom else my boyfriend will leave me.

I guess my mom expected me to sleep at her place all weekend and be there all weekend and only at my new place during work days...

I guess part is my fault for exploding on her and part that I am only seeing her once a week if I don't spend the whole weekend with her.

But I want to go out weekends. And those nights and not worry bout being home.

So in a way I am having fun.

But I need freedom.

If only I had the mom who was okay with me dating and going late night out I would have a better relationship with my mom and actually could stay home til I married.

Jesus please give us strength.